Time.
It passes quicker than you want when you are having fun. It passes quicker than
you want when you hear your alarm in the morning. It passes quicker than you
would like in the summer. It passes slower than you would like in the winter.
It passes slower than you want when you are in pain or in the midst of a hard
spot. It passes slower when you are waiting for something important, or even
someone important.
Elder
Dallin H. Oaks stated “In all the important
decisions in our lives, what is most important is to do the
right thing. Second, and only slightly behind the first, is to do
the right thing at the right time. People
who do the right thing at the wrong time can be frustrated and ineffective.
They can even be confused about whether they made the right choice when what
was wrong was not their choice but their timing.”
Woah Elder Oaks, you hit a nail right on Emily Thatcher’s
head.
When I was 17, I thought I had my life totally figured out. I
was going to play basketball for four years on a scholarship, get a good
degree, find my future husband and start a family shortly thereafter. But I
think Heavenly Father thought that sounded nice, but I needed to lead me to
other priceless experiences. Three back surgeries, two school transfers, a
handful of boyfriends, an 18 month foreign mission, and a few life curve balls
later, I am happily standing here in Salt Lake but with that cartoon character
confused face.Why am I writing this? Because I have come to a grand realization
that until I write it down, I won’t be able to convince myself of it and live
it.
I have come to believe that the first principle of the Gospel
is faith for some good reason. “Indeed,
we cannot have true faith in the Lord without also having complete trust in the
Lord's will and in the Lord's timing” said
Elder Oaks. Most
times either we do things too late, too soon, or too long. Applying to graduate
school before we have the needed experience or background= too soon. Maybe
living at home and mooching off our parents= too long. Making yourself
available to someone after months of contemplation= too late.
So here’s my pledge. I know I have gotten the answer to
obtain higher education so if that be medical school or physician assistant
school, I accept either happily. Even though maybe some of my classmates and
friends may be whizzing by me and getting higher degrees before I even apply,
so be it. Does one or two years really make a difference in the long run?
Although it’s frustrating as heck and our pride tells us others are doing more
things faster than we are, I think the Lord knows best and we need to trust
Him. I need these years to develop and become a better person. I need these
years to make lasting friendships. I need these years to prepare to be a better
mom. I need these years to have fun and love life. Will I stop progressing and
just wait around for good things to happen? Absolutely not. But I will grab
every opportunity I have and make it known than when it is my time, I’ll be
ready.
So medical school applications done this year- probably not.
Sometimes hard things are thrown your way and you have to slow down a bit.
Maybe next year? I most definitely plan on it. Time is a worldly concept; the
Lord really cares about who we become and not how old we were when we did it.
So even though I have this “internal basketball shot clock counting down
5-4-3-2-1, Emily you should be in medical school by now and be making more
money and have 2 kids!”, I need to have a little more faith that Heavenly
Father has a better plan than the one I’ve imagined.
Happiness comes from accepting the Lord’s will in our lives.
We will be eternally frustrated if we want things to go our way. So let’s have
a little more faith, a little more patience, and a little more love. Or maybe
at least I need to.
"Do not
rely on planning every event of your life—even every important event. Stand
ready to accept the Lord's planning and the agency of others in matters that
inevitably affect you. Plan, of course, but fix your planning on personal
commitments that will carry you through no matter what happens. Anchor your
life to eternal principles, and act upon those principles whatever the
circumstances and whatever the actions of others. Then you can await the Lord's
timing and be sure of the outcome in eternity." (Quotes taken from
'Timing by Elder Oaks, http://magazine.byu.edu/?act=view&a=1042)
This is Emily's internal shot clock that tells her there is too much to do and too little time. Who even made clocks, seriously? Enjoy the dang game of life.
This is 17 year old Emily- moderately cocky basketball player Emily who thought she could rule the world.
And even more importantly, this is 24 year old Emily- a little less cocky, a little more chubby, a little more faithful, a lot more happy.